You will never see where the ship truly is.
Only where your pencil says it is —
until the coast decides otherwise.
No landfall came in time, and the barrel is dry. This is not a verdict on you as a navigator — the sea simply won this crossing. Every good captain has a voyage like this one in the log.
You have crossed for the Azores five times, by pencil and log line alone. Whatever the sea taught you, it taught it honestly — at your own hand, at every landfall.